Update from my tumblr posts

These were anonymous and are absolutely disgusting. Several refer to rape and abuse, so read at your peril.



While at Maker Monday today, I met a few girls who were printing some trinkets and started up a pickup game of Claytionary, which we all made up on the spot.

Here are the rules:

  • Use a random noun generator for your topic. Skip names and things that are impossible to sculpt, such as colors.
  • You have 45 seconds to sculpt. When the time ends, the first one to correctly guess the noun gets a point.
  • Play until you get bored or the print finishes

Here are the results:

  • rachel IIIIIII
  • jackie III
  • amanda IIIII
  • lesya IIIIII



photo 1


photo 2

A bomb, apparently

photo 3

And the quintessential selfie

So I used my network

I reached out to the bi community on tumblr asking

“What is the most offensive or uninformed thing someone has said to you or someone you love regarding your sexuality?”

Here are the responses I’ve gotten so far (ps how do I cite this?)


Citations and other things

Putting the Gay in Games

Shaw, A. “Putting the Gay in Games: Cultural Production and GLBT Content in Video Games.” Games and Culture 4.3 (2009): 228-53. Web.

This article describes the difficulties that LGBT games have in hitting the market. We’re all familiar with the “Women’s Games” that are stereotypical and can be offensive. The games that are developed for a female market are casual, homemaker-based games even though women make up 47% of Gamers. The issues with women’s games are similar to the projected issues in LGBT based games- most games fall in to cliche, stereotypical games which aren’t fun, or they take themselves too seriously and fall in to a system of pandering which is just as unpleasant. In order to try to move away from both of these extremes, I want my game to not focus on being a Gayme. Rather, I just want it to be a good, immersive game that has a strong bisexuality tone.


On the Down Low

King, J. L. On the down Low: A Journey into the Lives of “straight” Black Men Who Sleep with Men. New York: Broadway, 2004. Print.

I think I could make this a sort of Bonus Round in my game after the player has already beaten the possible paths. This book discusses the issue in the African American community of its men being so far in denial that they are “Behind the Closet”, sleeping with men but not identifying as gay or bi because it’s unacceptable in their communities. Men who are on the “DL” Have steady wives or girlfriends who they sleep with, but they still go out to sleep with men. They come home later to their women and sleep with them in a effort to cleanse themselves. For this reason, black women have HIV at a rate three times higher than Hispanic women, and eighteen times higher than white women.

I’ve also been playing numerous dating sims and visual novels to research the structure of a visual novel.

Katawa Shoujo

Hatoful Boyfriend

Persona 4 -sim and RPG


Many of these were created using Ren’Py  software


TF2: A different breed of Gentleman


In a mid-century midwestern battleground, RED and BLU fight for control. Unlike usual shooters, you can choose from offensive, defensive, and support classes with less-than-realistic actions. For example, the Engineer class can speed the creation of his machines by hitting them with a wrench. The object of the game differs depending on which platform you choose to play on, from King of the Hill to Capture the Flag. This allows for many different game experiences. The player also has the option of choosing between offline practice mode and online multiplayer games, which is good for those that don’t like playing with real people.

The element of fun comes from the fast-paced time-based feeling of the game. You have to simultaneously kill the offensive members of the other team and complete the objectives of the round. The game also has a fun old-timey abstract James Bond retro-science feeling to it, which allows the player to feel more at ease about shooting the other players. This theme is carried throughout the game in its visuals and sound effects, leading to an immersive gameplay.

The controls are highly responsive, though it is far more difficult to play using a trackpad than a mouse. The level of difficulty is up to the player in Offline mode, and the tutorial levels are both entertaining and informative. With high replayability and an immersive experience, Team Fortress 2 gets

9/10 hats

There can only be Uno

So I did my game interviews on Uno, which was an experience. I remember playing it when I was a kid, which was always a fun time. (Also Maureen in ASL club let me borrow her deck, thanks gurl). I ended up being able to get my roommate, Hallie (who was in the documentary on games we watched in class), our homegirl Emily, and my friend Erin who happened to be at the Con Center to play. We played using the following house rules: Draw 1, no combos, 7 cards to start.

Playing the game itself was very entertaining, as it does have that nostalgia factor. It’s an easy game to pick up, and we actually went through the first round in about three minutes because I got lucky with my cards. There are ways to make the game last longer, of course.

I spent more time learning how to work the camera and positioning everything than actually playing, which I thought was interesting. In the end, Erin had to run to class so I was unable to interview her, but I did manage to get Hallie and Emily on camera.

Technology is difficult

Ok. Here’s my interview with Dr Kilmartin, taken on 26 Sept. It’s a bit of a struggle to upload audio files, if anyone is trying to do that. I’m still not sure if this will work.

PSA: This is about bisexuality and human sexuality, so it uses anatomical language.

“Dr Kilmartin.” Personal interview. 26 Sept. 2014.




Imagine you’re totally ripped. Abs of steel, regardless of gender or species. Totally classy Victorian clothing, only to be ripped off by your INTENSE FLEXING. How could you possibly become more gentile?


By stacking hats and dodging flying obstacles such as birds and mugs of “rootbeer”.

You know, the usual.

The game has two modes to choose from- Drinky or Dodgy. You begin with Dodgy levels, using WASD and the spacebar to collect hats and jump over flying obstacles. In Drinky levels, you compete against a Com to get drinks and jump over obstacles in a barfight. The game has multiplayer capabilities and the option to purchase additional characters and levels.

The controls are where the game dims, though, as they are not very responsive. Quick scroll is no different from regular scroll, and in Drinky levels the amount of hats you get is based mostly on whether or not the barkeep puts a drink closer to you or your opponent.

All in all though, Max Gentleman is just a silly, casual game to unwind. It doesn’t have any deep meaning because it isn’t meant to. What it lacks in gameplay it makes up for in world design and music, leaving the player amused and possibly confused.

7/10 hats



As expected, the game is super fun. Though the controls kind of suck, it’s the design and the humor that got me coming back time and time again for a quick round at the bar. The silliness of what you’re doing takes attention away from the sometimes clumsy mechanics. Quickscrolling was very difficult, but honestly I didn’t really care about getting points. I just wanted to be the max gentleman.

It does make sense that there are issues with the controls, though, as this is a new game and may still be working out bugs. It does suck that you have to buy the expansions to get new locations and characters, but they have to make money somehow.

Super Chaotic

From the beginning I knew that I wanted a game in the style of a visual novel. I’ve never liked intense gameplay, and I’ve been drawn to story over memorizing attacks. I think that VNs provide an immersive world because it takes root in your imagination. Everything is deeply personal, which also makes for a great vehicle for engagement. The combination of music, solid character design, and the element of choice in decision trees allow for not only a singular game, but one that branches until you reach 100% completion and understand the world around everything.

Originally, I thought what would be interesting to play through and experience? I’ve always liked mythology, especially Greek mythology. After talking with Dr Kayler, I got more excited about this idea. I could tie a country or region’s mythology into its modern issues. For example, Baba Yaga kidnapping children. However, this required lots of research and to be honest, it was too nebulous of an idea to execute. Then I thought of Shakespeare, and how decision trees can change anything in them. But what would this game accomplish other than making Shakespeare fun (which is better done live than virtually)?

Maybe history? The story of Julius Caesar is as compelling as any, especially if you add the options of  character choice- Brutus, Julius, or Antony? But again, what would it accomplish? Just another fun game, thinking of how choices have extreme consequences.

I had been having so many issues with pinning down exactly what I wanted to do and how I wanted to do it. I actually had a long conversation with my boyfriend this weekend, trying to work out my struggles until he asked me

“Well, what do you want more people to know and understand?”

It’s funny how I hadn’t thought of it like that before, but now that it was asked I had no doubts.

“I want them to know about bisexuality. Its validity and existence as a sexuality in its own right, not just tacked into an acronym.”

And here we are, to the most personal and important of lessons. The visual novel format would work well, seeing as it’s the classic dating sim layout. You would start with the choice of being a boy or girl, and then progress through your life as a bisexual wo/man met with daily challenges. There would be plenty of ignorance and dialogue choices, giving light to a wide spectrum of opinions of bisexuality.

I plan on talking to Dr Kilmartin, a gender psychologist, about what he knows on the subject. I will also be looking for any studies on bisexuality and acceptance, as being bi can be looked down on in both straight and gay communities.

I don’t imagine that it will be easy to put this game onto paper because it is so personal. I have had plenty of bad experiences in the past, but I think that it’s important for me to even get a game like this into prototype.

I mean, it worked for Depression Quest.